kmaalfiisa

before i go on somthin stupid
or postal
or any other sthi


i gotta rant




#1. im still at this school "honnegah"
im not a goody goody abercrombie gap rich kid
never grew up that way

call me socially retarded or even racist but i cant stand these people!
i come from an urban mixed race and interacial area to a suburban
area, im mellow an open on some things, but these people are freely blurting racist things, jokes, and steriotyping. please im not trying to sound like an a** h*** or nothin just understand where im from and how i grew up...

most of the sh** happening at this new school would have never happend back at East high... people were in check, never stepped outa line, rumours and racist jokes never happend (people get stabbed or their a** kicked)

#2 my dad says i can visit my old school, so now im looking for a day to do it...
my mom and her dumb a** feelings stand with NO..... you can visit on your day off
from school... *please tell me how the F*** im supposed to see my friends wehen no-ones gonna be there*

there is plenty to rant about but i know im tired of saying it here

so ive givin my own choices


#1... i go to school normally and visit my old school once every 2 week on a school day when they are there. both parents haveto agree

or

#2... i go to night school, you will bearly see me in any day
i wake up, go to work, then go to school, then go to sleep

or

#3... i just transfer back to East high

or

#4 (the dumbest but most looked upon) i simply leave after finals (maby drop out)
get my G.E.D. and either go into the marines, or (what i plan on doin) Masonry apprentice


im gonna be 18 on the 16th of this month
so i got confidence and ignorance out the a**


please

any help or ideas

dont care for all this you got it better then others SH**
i was better with what i had going, instead of starting all over

Roddimus Prime

Not that you'll take my advice but I'd look at which school is better and stay there. Study your *** off and stay 500 miles away from the armed forces.

When you're 15-18 you have no idea how important schooling and making the right decisions are. You just think about crotch and cars and have no vision. It's probably too late but you should be getting the best education you can. Nothing else matters at this age/point.

BigCT

I'll 2nd staying in school. You're a senior and 1/2 way done with the year. don't waste 11 yrs of school cause you hate it, that is what stupid people do.

I came very close to dropping out. It would have been the worst mistake of my life. I hated my school an had zero friends there (all went to anopther school).

My advice, Stick it out at the crap school. Ignore everyone, study your rear off and go to college. Unless you are in need of a serious attitude adjustment, or you're on your way to jail, stay out of the Military. It does some good for people who would normaly not have much going for them or really need to grow up quick, every one else will be burning up 3-4 yrs of high energy that could be used for getting a degree.

all the crap that happens in HS will be completly forgotten in 5 yrs. then you be living for another 55yrs after that. Be smart. don't let 6 months of crap affect 60 years of your life

ghettopro

Yeah, if you are a senior and half way done, tough it out, do what i do, just go in there and listen to the teacher and no-one else, when stupid people are around I zone them out. It works pretty good while they are still babbling about, im done with my work..had this problem a few times last year..

In the end things will look up for you, after all, its just one semester.

kmaalfiisa

i know its very dumb....

but im tired of keeping my head down walking in the halls... its not me

i was in this situation in middle school.... i kept my head down, i dont like shutting myself out
and i cant relate to anyone here......
as pathetic as is sounds it aint me to be like this

i have 11 days to decide..... for 5 months i counted off my days.... 11 off now

ghettopro

I may sound idiotic or retarded when i say this but ill make the best since of it..

You can let all this get to you and drop out and let just a few months of your teenage life be controlled by that...

or you can "tough" it out for a few more months, If i understand this correctly, if will be hard in your position, but wont it be worth while in the end?

sounds funny coming from a 17 year old doesnt it..

but im not really sure Im exactly clear on whats going on..

I know racism..but how/

JDM-P5

Don't listen to Matty...the military is awesome! Look at me...I'm in the military...just not the Marines...that's what Matty meant to say.
<3 Matt..ha ha.
Ok, seriously. Stay in school, I agree the best one is where you should be. Study, do your thing and move on. There's life after HS!! Well, I mean, we get older and the girls stay the same, but...y'know what I mean.
School is THE single most important thing you need to be concerned about....if it's really an issue, transfer back, but we all have had our issues. I've had mine, shoot Matty has told me a few of his....White/Black/Mixed...we all have the stuff happen to us...just finish up the last 5 or so months and go for broke!
-Phil

MC

keep @ it man.... not long to go..... so i would recomend u just stick it out...

i am kinda in same situation as u... i am doin an Engineerin degree @ uni now... dont really like it anymore but i am not gonna throw away 3 years of it and not finish the final 2 years..... u only got 6 months to go.... trust me mate stick with it....

kargoboy

Stick it out.
It doesn't matter what kind of person you think you are. You'll live through it.
Sometimes you just need to tough it out.
Part of growing up is realizing that everything in life isn't going to be just the way you like it.

ghettopro

which happens more thatn most of us would like..

Bartizek

I'm assuming this school is a private school? (abercrombie remark)

If it is, then i feel you're pain i goto a "highly respected" private school where 90% of the people are complete tools. Just find a few good friends and stick around with them and when you can't be in their class or whatevrer, just put all your energy into school.

I would find it hard to believe that you couldn't find 2 or 3 people that you like.

But yeah stick it out man, and work hard, the harder you work in high school the easier college will seem when you get there.

kmaalfiisa

well, not a private school... couldn't affoard it......

i had a really long talk to myself lastnight***

its very different to go from city to cuntry... not alot to relate to......

i do intend on finishing highschool..... i do have plans if stuff goes for broke, and i turn to dropping... i will go for my G.E.D. and apply at a workers union...

i plan on doing this after highschool anyway.....
i mean for the past 5 months do think i was really just waiting....
i've been planning and reading up on things

at as young as 17 1/2 w/ highschool dip. or ged.. you can become an apprentice in: masonry, drywalling, rebar worker, stone masonry, ect.
(with testing and documentation on ability to preform)
im not gonna go dumb... but it is what i was concidering doing

i also explained to my parents... my dad kept quiet, and my mom was pissed... tellin me the front door was right there (pist as i was i said id ge then), and now im a "hot shot"

tonight i will be talking and discussing more to them (by their choice they made it)

pass the peas

For god's sake man, keep your head up! You don't have to look people in the eye, you can look right through them or past them, but keeping your head down is suicide! Stand up straight, keep your head up, and show the punkasses what dignity is all about. Don't worry about relating to them, they've shown you how well they relate to you.

ghettopro

Yeah, what he said..
alot of the time if you show someone they arent bothering you they usually lose interest and dont bother anymore..or you could start a massacre...j/k

Bartizek

exactly, everyone has made fun of someone in their life... the reason you do it is to see them get mad, so just don't get mad, go with the flow and stick to yourself